Thursday, January 23, 2020 much?

Certainly doesn't seem that way anymore, does it? Well, time to change that. Time to jump back in the game. You know why? Because I miss it. I miss the interaction. I miss the love, the support and the community.

And...because I feel like now that my littles are 4 years old, maybe I can start to refocus on things that I used to be able to enjoy when free time was a thing. Not that free time is really a thing still, but I feel like I'm in a place where I can finally MAKE time. I am.

Lets start with an update on my trio.

Casey: Where do I start with this guy. He's all energy, all boy and all snuggles wrapped up in this amazing tiny human body. If I tell him no, he very dramatically pouts, but the second I start to move away from him he melts into a giant mama's boy puddle. He'd give up pretty much every toy he has if it means he can still come in my room at night. No bribe is working on that kid. He cuddles and likes to play with my ear while he sleeps which is bizarre, but whatever comforts you little man. He plays hard and loves even harder. It's what I love most about him.

Britton: Oh my sweet, little slightly high strung, big brown eyed boy. I'll admit, he loves his mama, but this one is a daddy's boy. Though the second I "pretend pout" he's all about giving his mama some hugs. He loves a mix of everything. His favorite color is rainbow. He loves music...from Andy Graham to George Strait to the Beatles. He's by far our best eater of the group. He's also so polite it literally makes my heart burst. Oh. And he toots literally all day every day. I don't even know how it's possible to toot THAT much.

Liddy Rose: This girl is ALL girl. Her favorite color is pink. She loves all things Disney princesses, unicorns and rainbows. She's literally the best hugger on the planet and has the sweetest little voice I've ever heard. She rarely gets in trouble and when she does it breaks her heart. Like shatters it. So, she just doesn't. She nursed for 3 years and even though I finally weaned her, it wasn't by her choice and she would still be doing so if I let her. She's a mama's girl through and through. I hope it lasts for ever. Though I know her independent, opinionated mind will definitely give me a run for my money come those pre-teen years. She loves to go to the theater, we've seen Frozen 2 three times, and Little Women. Her favorite princess is Sleeping Beauty. She also has such a beautiful connection with my mother's spirit. I can't even describe it any other way.

These three keep me on my toes, they keep me busy and they keep me laughing. People ask me all the time, how do I do it? How do I not? I couldn't imagine my life any other way. I was born to be their mom. And the journey that got me there is still not lost on me. I think about it every day. I think about how lucky and blessed we are because of them. I also think about the women that still struggle. .All the time. Women still reach out to me for support and guidance and I love that. It makes me feel needed. Like I have something to offer. I want to figure out a way to help. Make a mark in this infertility world. It's time I figure out how to do that.

I'll wrap this post with a few visual updates of our crew from 2019!