Monday, July 6, 2015

my boys

Kelly had an appointment with our MFM last week. These little guys are just rocking right along. Both weighing about 3.5 pounds each and of course, both turned breech...hopefully not to stay. She already thinks at least one turned since then, and the doctor assured her that there was still time for them to cooperate.

The boys were pretty shy with the camera and this was the only decent shot (other than a tush pic) that they were able to get.

It amazes me that we are less than 3 weeks from leaving for Texas to wait for these little guys arrival. The doctor believes that she will not be induced and will go into labor before that. I just hope that it's after our arrival. Kelly will be 34.5 weeks when we arrive.

As far as how she's feeling, and I'm sure those reading this that have had twins know...she's pretty uncomfortable. She doesn't sleep well and their movements can sometimes stop her in her tracks. It's pretty darn hot in Texas, and with 4 kids, 3 dogs and always being on the go, she is dealing with painful swelling. It goes down when she is able to put her feet up and rest, but still...I hate that she's in any discomfort.

It still blows my mind. That because of the willingness and kind heart of another, in the next month or so, we'll be holding our sons. I can't tell you how many times that thought crosses my mind on a daily basis.

What a truly remarkable journey this has become.

Tuesday, June 23, 2015


My daughter

Last Friday we got the results of the Panarama test that looks for risks of chromosome abnormalities. The great thing (and most important thing) is the test came back "very low risk". This was a huge weight off my mind. All I've been able to think about is how bad my eggs have always been. During IVF, past pregnancies, etc. Not to mention the fact that I'll be 38 in a few weeks. So this news was music to my ears. 

Then the nurse asked if we wanted to know the gender. Of course we did...and I waited during that brief pause, knowing no matter what, it didn't matter...then the nurse's a girl...and I broke down in tears.

A few minutes later we were getting an ultrasound and I saw my healthy little girl. Not only that, but she gave us the most beautiful view of her. And here I am, 12 weeks and 1 day, and finally, well almost, feeling like this might be real and actually happening. In six short months, I may be holding my three precious babies in my arms. The thought fills my heart with so much love and it's difficult to hold back the emotions that come with that. 

I'm not sure how I could possibly deserve this, and every day I worry about what's to come, is this really too good to be true? All I can do is take it day by day and hope that my three little miracles will all arrive safely into this world. 

My unborn boys are big brothers. It's still crazy to even say that out loud. We have been sharing with our closest friends and family the past week or so and the responses have been amazing. So much love, happiness, tears and of course, a little shock too! We know it's going to be hard...but, it will be so worth it. 

The boys will be 30 weeks on Thursday and will have an update on Friday with how they are doing. Time is flying by and we will also be a month out from when we leave for Texas. I'm so anxious and ready to be there. To see Kelly and her family. And to meet these little guys. So much happy right now, I just pray for it to continue. 

Wednesday, June 17, 2015


This post is way over due. Honestly. I need life to slow down just a hair. It's been non-stop on the go, crazy for the past month and a half. I've traveled to four cities, had three baby showers and had weekend guests three different weekends. That's in a matter of six weeks and all during my 1st trimester. But somethings are a priority. And my visit to Athens, Georgia a few weekends ago, was just that.

Over two years ago, and I don't even remember who found who first, but I somehow was graced with Amanda in my life. This woman shows unconditional love and support to so many, and she's gotten me through some tough moments. Her texts, emails and comments over the years have meant the world to me. I'm so, so lucky to call her my friend.

And now...she's a friend I've officially met in person!!

About a month ago, I came across an awesome sale on Southwest between Indianapolis and Atlanta. With what's to come for me with the twins and then hopefully this third little one, I'm guessing my traveling days are going to come to a screeching halt. So how could I not immediately text her. I've been lucky enough in my job and with having family all over that I travel frequently which has given me an opportunity to meet fellow infertility bloggers. I love being able to take our online connection and build our friendships even deeper by connecting in person. But somehow, other than in layovers, my travels have never taken me close enough to visit Amanda. So the opportunity to meet her AND Garrison couldn't be passed by. 

We settled on a weekend and plans were set in motion. I so wish I could have stayed longer, but as I mentioned before, it's been a hectic few months. So an amazing 24 hour trip it was! 

Amanda, Sam and Garrison picked me up from the airport and we all went to dinner. Chicken and Waffles! Man, they know the way to this southern girls heart. We stayed up late chatting and the next day, Amanda, Garrison and I explored the University of Georgia campus. What a beautiful little college town Athens is! Had more delicious southern food, complete with sweet tea (a big favorite of mine) and just enjoyed finally getting to spend time together. 

This guy...oh my was love at first sight! 

I dare anyone to resist that sweet smile. Can't be done. 

If only the day could have lasted a wee bit longer, but I had to get back. I loved talking, walking and just enjoying a lazy Saturday afternoon with them. Sam and Amanda are the absolute SWEETEST couple and I am forever grateful that they have little Garrison. What a truly special family they are. 

I also was in North Carolina visiting my family this past weekend and even though I travel here often, I don't get a lot of time to see friends because my time is completely occupied by family. However, Kelly, who I've communicated with through email and Instagram lives there. It was a quick "before we head to the airport, we can grab a quick bite" kind of thing, but I'm still thankful to meet her and her husband. They were simply awesome and again, just reminds me how lucky I am to have made such amazing friends on this journey. 

Friday, June 12, 2015

Happy Anniversary to my love

June 12, 2011

Four years I've been married to T. It's been a crazy four years. Filled with laughter, lots of smiles and lots of tears. But through every single tear, every single challenge, our marriage has gotten stronger and stronger. I'm incredibly thankful for that. I'm quite certain, I wouldn't be where I am today without him. He my friends, is the one that has always kept me going. 

Our life is about to change. Most definitely for the better. We'll probably be a little more tired and at times a little cranky...but the joy and happy I know will always shine through. And we are so looking forward to every tired, cranky and joyful moment of these next four years and beyond. Oh how exciting they will be! 

Thanks T...for picking me.