Of course that's what I've been doing. Though, how could I not? It's all I know. My cycle I had 3 follicles, 2 eggs, none were mature. It was that very cycle that I needed all of about 5 minutes to realize that donor eggs was the right direction for us. I don't have any eggs. The few I do...aren't good!!
Obviously, my preference would be for a giant basket of eggs to be dropped off on my door step. After making the decision for donor eggs, we didn't consider that our donor wouldn't respond, respond well, or so slowly. But she did.
What I've been reminding myself, and many of you have helped remind me, is it IS quality over quantity. There is no reason that her quality isn't great. She's young. She's got her own child. Her tests results were all great. She passed CCRM's rigorous standards to be a donor. These are all things to be confident about.
I got a very vague update today on yesterday's monitoring appointment:
Goose will have at most...10 eggs
She will not be triggering tonight
Next check will be tomorrow
Like I said. Very vague. Tomorrow is my regroup with Dr. G regarding the cycle. This was scheduled weeks ago, before she even started stims. So by tomorrow night, I'll have a lot more information about all of this. For whatever reason, it's like pulling teeth to get information about this cycle.
I am still scared. I'm hopeful. But scared too. We have so much on the line, and I don't know what "Plan C" would be should this not work for us.
So I guess I could use a few prayers, twinkily ju-ju fingers, good vibes, "go go ovary" cheers for Goose, whatever is in your repertoire...I'll gladly take.
This next week or two...is going to be long.