Tuesday, November 10, 2015

"Your baby looks wonderful"

Those are some pretty strong words for someone coming from the infertility depths in which I've been. But that's what she said after my first NST (nonstress test) this morning. "Your baby looks wonderful".

I feel like everyone is waiting for a complication. A blip in this otherwise seemingly great pregnancy. Other than aches and pains, which I would gladly suffer through for as long as it takes, this pregnancy really has been, well, normal. Other than the constant monitoring, but that's more because the risk is there.

But she...she is great. It's all up to my body to just hang in there a little longer. As of yesterday, I was 32 weeks. In 6 more days I'll be at the same point in which my boys were born. I certainly would rather she didn't come early...but if she did, my little guys are proof that all will be fine. I take comfort in that.

I'll be doing weekly NST's for the remainder of the pregnancy. This little gal is in the 81st percentile and measuring 3 weeks ahead. I can't believe I'm actually looking at having a BIG baby. How that's possible, I have no idea. My husband arrived in this world weighing around 9 pounds. So guess she's taking after him! My doctor seems to be against inducing early, regardless of her size. This should be interesting. Guess we'll find out at the MFM appointment when we find out about the placenta accreta in two weeks if it even matters.

My boys are amazing. Like I can't get enough of them. I miss them like crazy when I'm at work and think of them nonstop. The second I get home, I don't know who's happier, them or me. Probably me. I sometimes want to pinch myself because none of this seems like it should be real. How is it fair? There are women I still think of often and pray get their miracle. They deserve it so much. How is it possible that regardless of what I've gone through, here I am about to have my third child in less than 6 months? The realization and guilt does overwhelm me at times.

But I couldn't, wouldn't change a thing. Not the years of infertility. Not using an egg donor. Not using a surrogate. Even if I knew then, what I know now...it wouldn't matter. Those boys light up my world. They are my first born and will for the rest of my life, be the little loves of my life.

My sweet, sweet Britton & Casey
3.5 months

17 comments:

  1. I love seeing your updates. So glad she is perfect. Hope the remainder of your pregnancy is uneventful. I can relate to constantly thinking of our ttc sisters who deserve their miracle, it makes my heartache so bad.

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  2. Your updates make my heart happy. I love that sweet little girl looks wonderful. Praise God for that! I can't wait you to be a momma of 3!!! Those boys have no idea how lucky they are to have YOU as their mom <3

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  3. I'm glad things are going so wonderful!

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  4. So good to hear everything is going so well �� And the boys are just adorable!

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  5. amazing Suz!!! So so amazing. I LOVE this for you, what a beautiful, insane, miraculous ending to a story that looked like it was going to end sad. LOVE

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  6. This really has to be one of the best "infertile" stories ever! Your boys are gorgeous and they look so much alike. Chunky babies are the best:)

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  7. You are totally deserving if these blessings! I'm an over the moon for you and can't wait to meet sweet Liddy Rose. I just want to squeeze those little chubs! Those rolls! Those smiles! Muah, perfection!

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  8. So excited for you. I am so surprised ( but happy that your OB is not interested in inducing early for size). I didnt know you had accreta. interested to see what the MFM says.

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  9. So much beauty and happy in this post - love it :) You deserve all the happiness those sweet babes bring to you, soak it all in!

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  10. I agree that your's is one of the IF stories ever. So glad to hear your baby girl is doing great.

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  11. Casey's hair kills me.

    I can't believe she's 80% percentile. Britton and Casey better watch out...it's seriously going to look like you have triplets after a few months and Liddy loses that newborn look. A-MAZING!

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  12. Yours is my absolute favourite IF story.. So glad to hear Liddy is on track, and that the boys are getting cuter and chubbier by the day. Third baby in 2015 - not a bad way to cap off a crazy year..

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  13. Love this update! So wonderful. All of it!

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  14. How wonderful to hear your health (and baby girls) is good and that you are so happy. Returning home after a day of being away is THE BEST (well, other than actually being home).

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