In those 27 days the internet has only added to my fear. The fear that they would determine some reason not to allow her to move forward. I read post after post about CCRM being one of the hardest clinics in the country to get a gestational surrogate approved. This has frightened me. While yes, Dr. G had said that the hypertension during her 2nd pregnancy and the fact that we couldn't even get records for that pregnancy or her 1st pregnancy weren't disqualifiers, I still had the nagging fear (daily) that there would be a red flag somewhere that would give them cause to turn her (us) away.
And we weren't prepared for that to happen. We feel connected to her now. We can imagine the next 12 months of doctors appointments, FET and hopefully a pregnancy with her. It's there...in my heart, but I've been here before, where I believe this is our answer...and it's not.
So for the last 27 days, I've been hopeful, but very anxious. Yesterday this one little email from my nurse made my heart soar.
I got her record review back yesterday and everything looks good.
Her records were approved. Another huge hurdle has been cleared. Yet, I realize, we're still only starting to even be able to see the starting line up ahead.
Next steps:
Phone Screen between GC and nurse
ODWU (one day work up) where they will do a psych screening and medical screening (November)
Contract negations with attorneys
Only then...will be be able to begin.
I feel miles away...but I can see what's ahead. Every little step brings me closer.
