Friday, October 5, 2012

1 more week to wait it out

This has been an excruciatingly long week. Not sure how else to put it. Work has been a bit of a drag which makes the days super long. Tomorrow will be one week since my IUI and other than a bit of cramping and lower back pain, it's been business as usual. My progesterone levels yesterday at 6 dpiui, were 31, which is great. I know that the trigger is out of my system, so by mid-late next week, I'll probably start testing. If I have a BFP, I go in for my beta on October 16th. If not, I'll discontinue the progesterone supplements and move on to the next cycle.

I wish my heart was into this cycle, but it's not. I don't feel that this is it. I certainly hope it is, but my gut is telling me it's not. T got pretty upset about my "negativity" the other night, so I guess the only way to express my feelings is right here. Not sure if it's still the timing of the IUI that is bothering me, I feel in my heart that I ovulated much earlier than the expected 36 hours after the trigger, but something just isn't sitting quite right with me. That's okay, I know that this was just our first opportunity and if it doesn't work, we'll do it again in November.

On an incredibly happy note, and one that really should inspire me to think more positively, I've seen 2 of my cyber buddies that were also going through IUI's this month get BFP's in the past 2 days. I couldn't be more overjoyed for them!! I've been doing a little dancing jig all day just for them.

No worries, soon enough, it will be my turn. See how I turned that mopey-ness around by the end!? Go team.

6 comments:

  1. Fingers crossed! Good things come in threes!

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  2. Just came across your blog today and read your TTC timeline. You deserve for some good things to start happening and I'm hoping that your first IUI works out! Good luck!

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  3. I know what you mean when you say you in your heart you feel like this isn't it. I've felt that way, I've also seen others feel that way and get a BFP at the end, so I am hoping that is the case for you. I think a lot of it is a protective measure. if I don't let myself believe it, it won't hurt so bad when it doesn't happen. At least that's that what we try to believe. You are such a strong and amazing persona and like PP posted, good things do come in 3s so I'm very much praying and hoping for your BFP!

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  4. Only a few more days to go before you test! Seeing three bright letters in your near future!! BFP!

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  5. I am hoping that you are wrong about this cycle. If it makes you feel any better, my RE says that IUI is actually perfect once you've just ovulated (so if you see fluid in an u/s rather than the follie still there) it's actually really good timing. The sperm got there in time I'm sure. Routing for you here!

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    1. I was really bummed that my RE did not do another u/s after cd 10. So when I had my IUI, I was certain I had ovulated about 24 hours earlier, but I have no confirmation other than my temp had spiked that morning. Definitely learned a few lessons this cycle that I'll be sure to be correcting next go around if it comes to that! Thanks for the support!!

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