Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Great News...Clouded with Doubt

I have really good news. News that I've been waiting on since last May when we decided to move forward with a gestational carrier and I was so lucky to have Kelly come in to our life.

We have a transfer date. And it's this year.

December 16th

That would put her beta on December 26th. If she tested early (which she already said she would) we would know by Christmas. I couldn't ask for anything that would mean more or make me happier than to find out that she's pregnant with our baby.

I want so badly to be jumping for joy right now.

She started BCPS on Sunday and starts Lupron next Wednesday. Our FET cycle has begun.

But...there is always a but...

She is having her repeat antibody screen drawn today. With these results, which we most likely won't have for another week...this whole cycle (actually it will go way beyond this cycle) will come crashing down.

My heart is terrified right now. I mean, this is EVERYTHING on the line with this one simple blood test.

So think of her today as she goes in for this test. Send prayers and good thoughts that this is just a tiny fluke and all continues to move along beautifully as it has thus far. Think of me as I try and keep my sanity for this next week.

19 comments:

  1. I'm choosing to believe that CCRM is making plans and moving forward with all of these steps because everyone involved believes this WILL move forward. Hoping for expedited and good results so we can all celebrate!

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  2. Oh Suzanne! This makes my heart SO happy!! Still sending my prayers that everything keeps working out. So happy for you two!! (Hopefully you three soon!!)

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  3. Everything that can be crossed is crossed!!!

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  4. Im believing that all will go well and that you'll be getting wonderful Christmas news!! Oxox

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  5. Sending so many good vibes for y'all today! Hoping this test turns out negative and she'll be pregnant by Christmas. I'm so hopeful for you my friend.

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  6. I will be thinking of you and hoping you get your Christmas miracle :) xo

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  7. Thinking of you both and sending good thoughts. Talk about the best Christmas present ever...!

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  8. Ahhhh! Praying for everything to go smoothly with Kelly's blood draw. I will be thinking of you this next week and will be praying for the BEST Christmas present EV-ER!

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  9. Praying and believing that only good news will come after this blood draw. I am so anxious and giddy for you! It's getting so much closer and what wonderful news it will be at Christmas! sending prayers to my Poppa God and sending you hugs! xo

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  10. Sending so many positive thoughts your way. And K's way.

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  11. Eeeek! Wishing for great results on the antibody screening so this plan falls into place. So exciting you have a transfer date and that if so, you may know by Christmas. This is all sounding so picture perfect. Come on God! Suzanne has been waiting long enough, and it's her time now. Please Lord let everything fall into place just right!

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  12. It is not fair that you have to endure so many waits! Praying this week goes by quickly and for GOOD news to come as soon as possible. And praying for a September baby for you!

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  13. How exciting!! Fingers are crossed for good test results! This is the hardest part of infertility, the unknown that can change everything, but I have high hopes for you both this will work in your favor!

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  14. Sending love and prayers your way! Hoping and believing for good test results. How perfect would it be to find out on Christmas Day?!

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  15. praying like crazy all goes as planned!!

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  16. Everything is falling into place. Hoping everything comes back fine with her results. This had to be your time Suzanne

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  17. I'll be praying that you'll have a peaceful, joyful, Christmas-y Christmas without anxiety about results overshadowing it. But mostly, I'll be praying that all of this will being you a baby...or babies!

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