In mid-May, around the time I was starting my first Clomid cycle, I decided that I didn't want to go through months upon months of fertility meds with my OBGYN who really didn't do much monitoring along with the meds. I was pretty shocked at the 3 1/2 month wait to get an initial appointment! At the time, I was thinking, that's okay, I'll have 3 months on Clomid and in my head, I really thought I'd end up canceling the appointment way before August 23rd and if I didn't, I've have already given the Clomid a go, ready to move on to something else.
I know that just because my appointment is 'round the corner, that doesn't mean that I'll be pregnant next month. I think it's more the piece of mind that we'll have some help. Someone trying as hard as we are to make a baby happen for us. They'll be tests/procedures to go through first and who knows what will work for us, whether it's Femara, IUI, injectibles or IVF. As of right now, I'm going in to this, believing that something will work. This journey has not been easy. It's not been on my preferred time frame. I'm bummed that 3 cycles were wasted with a thin lining. I wish that my doctor would have monitored me earlier. But I'm armed with information and I know more about my body than I think I ever have or ever thought I would know. So doc...get ready for me!!!
This weekend we are heading to Kansas City to visit family. Actually, we leave this afternoon. (well, if the line of storms rolling threw don't derail that plan and delay our flight) Trevor had a chat with his Dad, letting him know that while we're very happy for his step-sister (we found out she was pregnant last week), we are struggling. His Dad completely understood, and I think a little sensitivity will be given. I was unsure about opening up, but I believe that it's better for them to understand our feelings than for anyone to feel slighted. Hopefully, this will make for a nice family weekend all around!
As far as my cycle goes, we're heading into my fertile window. Currently I'm CD 11. Temps have been remaining steady (since I started taking them again, so that I can confirm ovulation) but I'm still not using the monitor. I started my OPK's and so far, BFN. We're thinking we'll be getting busy under his Dad's roof...exciting, HA! We've already started the EOD thing. We'll start ED once I get a positive OPK. This will be my first month of not doing a P4 test (well at least with my OB) but I think that's fine. Every month, even before the Clomid, ovulation was confirmed. I've also had a little more CM this cycle, and since I'm typically at zilch, I have to wonder if it's the lack of Clomid, the estrogen supplements I've taken this first part of this cycle or a combination of both! Either way, I hope that means my lining is fattening back up!
Who knows, maybe I can go in, meet this doc, and in the next few weeks, he can tell me you're preggers, go home! Wishful thinking, but hey, it could happen.