Thursday, August 16, 2012

Longest 1ww ever

In mid-May, around the time I was starting my first Clomid cycle, I decided that I didn't want to go through months upon months of fertility meds with my OBGYN who really didn't do much monitoring along with the meds.  I was pretty shocked at the 3 1/2 month wait to get an initial appointment! At the time, I was thinking, that's okay, I'll have 3 months on Clomid and in my head, I really thought I'd end up canceling the appointment way before August 23rd and if I didn't, I've have already given the Clomid a go, ready to move on to something else.

One week from today, I meet with the best my city has to offer in Reproductive Endocrinology. From what I've heard he leaves no stone unturned and doesn't dilly dally around. Exactly what I need and what I've been counting down the days all summer for. I can't believe that I can finally say my appointment is "next week". 

I know that just because my appointment is 'round the corner, that doesn't mean that I'll be pregnant next month. I think it's more the piece of mind that we'll have some help. Someone trying as hard as we are to make a baby happen for us. They'll be tests/procedures to go through first and who knows what will work for us, whether it's Femara, IUI, injectibles or IVF. As of right now, I'm going in to this, believing that something will work. This journey has not been easy. It's not been on my preferred time frame. I'm bummed that 3 cycles were wasted with a thin lining. I wish that my doctor would have monitored me earlier. But I'm armed with information and I know more about my body than I think I ever have or ever thought I would know. So doc...get ready for me!!! 

This weekend we are heading to Kansas City to visit family. Actually, we leave this afternoon. (well, if the line of storms rolling threw don't derail that plan and delay our flight) Trevor had a chat with his Dad, letting him know that while we're very happy for his step-sister (we found out she was pregnant last week), we are struggling. His Dad completely understood, and I think a little sensitivity will be given. I was unsure about opening up, but I believe that it's better for them to understand our feelings than for anyone to feel slighted. Hopefully, this will make for a nice family weekend all around! 

As far as my cycle goes, we're heading into my fertile window. Currently I'm CD 11. Temps have been remaining steady (since I started taking them again, so that I can confirm ovulation) but I'm still not using the monitor. I started my OPK's and so far, BFN. We're thinking we'll be getting busy under his Dad's roof...exciting, HA! We've already started the EOD thing. We'll start ED once I get a positive OPK. This will be my first month of not doing a P4 test (well at least with my OB) but I think that's fine. Every month, even before the Clomid, ovulation was confirmed. I've also had a little more CM this cycle, and since I'm typically at zilch, I have to wonder if it's the lack of Clomid, the estrogen supplements I've taken this first part of this cycle or a combination of both! Either way, I hope that means my lining is fattening back up! 

Who knows, maybe I can go in, meet this doc, and in the next few weeks, he can tell me you're preggers, go home! Wishful thinking, but hey, it could happen.



6 comments:

  1. Hoping your 1ww goes by fast! I am just into the 3ww for my first RE appointment!! I am excited to finally get this show on the road!

    Sounds like it was a good thing to let DH's family in on the trouble of ttc so that way your sil's bfp isnt thrown in your face this weekend!

    I hope the weekend turns out great!! and helps make your 1ww quickly come and go!

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  2. Hoping it will pass quickly for you! And you could totally get your BFP this cycle - stay positive! Either way, you'll know you're doing everything you can to make it happen. I'm glad your father in law was understanding and hope that will make the trip easier. FX!

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  3. Hey lady! Hope you're enjoying your family visit. Thinking of you. :-)

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    1. Hey you! We're having a great time...did a little golfing today. Still no positive OPK though! boo. Hope the party went well last night!

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  4. Very exciting to have new hope for trying something new with your RE. And btw....the only time I ever got pregnant was the cycle AFTER I stopped Clomid. I have actually heard this from plenty of other people. I can't explain it, but I hear it often. There is definitely a chance you could become pregnant on your own this cycle. Best of luck to you Suzanne!

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  5. I'm really excited for you!! Enjoy your lil trip and good luck during this fertile window, 'cause you never know! I've heard of many a person showing up to the RE preggers. Either way, I'm glad your appt is now "this week"

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