Saturday, September 28, 2013

Good news or bad news?

Ever since my call last night with my nurse at CCRM, I'm really undecided on how I feel about the news. Goose is still cycling as of now. The doctor feels at this point we should keep going. However, as of right now, she has 11 follicles. Certainly not as many as I would have hoped with a donor cycle. 

This is the breakdown:

Left ovary 
5 follicles between the sizes of 4 - 9mm

Right ovary
6 follicles between the sizes of 3.5 - 9.5mm

Her labs were "okay", but I do not know the actual levels. 

So she's responding slow. This was after 6 days of stims. Her next check is tomorrow, I won't get the update until Sunday. 

They were unable to give me any indication of when this could put the retrieval date. As of now, T is scheduled to fly to Denver on Tuesday. My assumption based on those sizes, we'll be pushing this back, potentially more towards the end of the week. 

On one hand, yes, the cycle is going forward, but knowing that we'll most likely get less than 10 eggs does bother me a little bit. We still need them to fertilize AND make it to 5 day to freeze. So it's pretty scary. 

For now it's just one step at a time, one DAY at a time...trying to stay as relaxed and calm as possible. Which really translates to me being a nervous train wreck!!! 

20 comments:

  1. I don't think that's bad at all! I bet you're going to get way more eggs than that in the end. If it makes you feel any better, even during my own IVF with my supposed DOR, I had only 7 eggs at first ultrasound. By the time they retrieved, they got 17 (14 of those mature) and 7 made it to Day 5/6 and were freeze quality. My point is just that so many women have the same experience. I am no doctor, but if her numbers are all good FSH wise and whatnot, I would not be surprised at all if she gets double the eggs that are showing now. We've all seen it play out like that time and time again with fellow IVF'ers who end up surprised at retrieval time. Everyone responds differently. She may just be a slow starter, so try not to play that numbers game in your head. They've got this!

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    1. Thank you Emily. All of the comments I've received have definitely helped. I'm anxiously awaiting the call about yesterday's check and remaining hopeful!

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  2. Ooo, I'm loving Emily's comment right now! I know NOTHING about this, but I'm gong with Emily! Keep the faith! Praying for you and Goose! Hugs from 600 miles away!

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  3. Yes, I agree with everything Emily said. She is probably just slow to get going and things will really start to take off in the next few days. I'm thinking of you (and Goose's ovaries...is that weird?) and sending all the positive vibes I can spare!

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    1. Thank you!!! Not weird at all, considering how often I've been thinking of her ovaries!! Poor woman has no idea how many good ovary vibes she's been getting! :)

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  4. Oh man, I hear you on the waiting. IF is FULL of waiting but this is extra hard because it's happening in a different state! I too agree with Emily. I know you've heard the stories a trillion times, but I follow 2 young bloggers in mid twenties and they each only had 2 make it to day 5 and each got pregnant. I know the "more eggs the merrier" though :) Praying for you guys and that the time flies!!

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  5. I'm also going to agree with Em. Anything can happen in a couple days. I know I was also a slow responder with clomid and I know it's different when ur stimming but everyone is different. Praying that everything progresses nicely.

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  6. Emily is right (as always). :) I bet there will be more follicles come retrieval. They'll keep her growing them until they are satisfied. We've all seen it or experienced the elusive low follie count that suddenly blossomed. You're in good hands where you are. They'll get this done. I am praying really really hard for you guys.

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  7. Honestly I hear the best stories from the slow growing follies. I have a feeling that while you won't get quantity, you will get quality and I predict a couple to freeze for later. Lots of thoughts and prayers!

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  8. So sorry that you got this disappointing news Suzanne. It's so hard when we have such high hopes for something only to be let down (again and again) I have faith that your time is coming soon. I am sending you (and Goose) tons of good vibes for a great cycle. xo

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  9. I am hopeful!! God never dissapoints!

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  10. I agree with what your commenters are saying. This game is not about counting follies, because follies does not equal eggs.
    Anecdotally, my friend Veronica had 5 eggs from her last DE cycle (shared egg - 3 recipients), and ended up with 3 good blastocysts.
    All you need to have a baby is one good embryo. I really hope that one good embryo is in there.
    It must also be hard not to compare to your own experience with IVF. But remember that Goose is not infertile and she is younger than you (not that you are old at all). So, it's a different experience altogether.
    I hope that things go well with this cycle. Hold on to yourself, dear woman. There will be good news one day.

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    1. You are exactly right. Your comment really hit home with me because I have been comparing my cycle with hers and I can't do that. Thank you for always knowing exactly what to say.

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  11. That's only 11 that they can see! Maybe there will be more once they go in... My fingers are crossed, girl! XO

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  12. I have been reading your blog for a little bit and have never commented before. I just wanted to let you know that I am rooting for you and am hoping for the best this cycle with your donor (and all cycles of course)! I am heading into my first IVF after many years of loss and failure and you have definitely helped me be optimistic and motivated. I look forward to reading good news from you soon! -Maureen

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    1. Thank you so much for the kind words. Wishing you the very best of luck with your first IVF!!

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  13. I bet there are more follicles, Suzanne! I'm happy to hear things are moving forward!!! Praying for you and Goose!

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  14. Suzanne,

    We've talked before on babycenter femara thread (long time ago) but I've kept up with your blog ever since. You are such a fighter. I find so much inspiration in your journey. I'm about to start my first IVF and I'm a nervous wreck. My blog is www.savedbygrace857.blogspot.com

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  15. Suzanne.. This is how it is going to go down.

    Her damn follicles are going to wake up! Then..

    - you are going to get an awesome amount of eggs
    - your husband is going to have some medal winning sperm
    - you are going to get a great number of healthy embryos
    - then you are going to get pregnant

    Prayers coming your way friend!!

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  16. I can't even imagine how tough it feels to be hanging in the balance like that. Oh, man. My thoughts and prayers are with you...and Goose too.

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