Monday, September 30, 2013

Go Goose!

First of all, I want to acknowledge how helpful everyones comments were over the weekend. Augusta specifically said something that really hit me and has helped me tremendously. I cannot compare Goose's cycle to my own IVF. Goose is not infertile. 

Of course that's what I've been doing. Though, how could I not? It's all I know. My cycle I had 3 follicles, 2 eggs, none were mature. It was that very cycle that I needed all of about 5 minutes to realize that donor eggs was the right direction for us. I don't have any eggs. The few I do...aren't good!! 

Obviously, my preference would be for a giant basket of eggs to be dropped off on my door step. After making the decision for donor eggs, we didn't consider that our donor wouldn't respond, respond well, or so slowly. But she did. 

What I've been reminding myself, and many of you have helped remind me, is it IS quality over quantity. There is no reason that her quality isn't great. She's young. She's got her own child. Her tests results were all great. She passed CCRM's rigorous standards to be a donor. These are all things to be confident about. 

I got a very vague update today on yesterday's monitoring appointment:

Goose will have at most...10 eggs
She will not be triggering tonight
Next check will be tomorrow

Like I said. Very vague. Tomorrow is my regroup with Dr. G regarding the cycle. This was scheduled weeks ago, before she even started stims. So by tomorrow night, I'll have a lot more information about all of this. For whatever reason, it's like pulling teeth to get information about this cycle. 

I am still scared. I'm hopeful. But scared too. We have so much on the line, and I don't know what "Plan C" would be should this not work for us. 

So I guess I could use a few prayers, twinkily ju-ju fingers, good vibes, "go go ovary" cheers for Goose, whatever is in your repertoire...I'll gladly take. 

This next week or two...is going to be long.  




22 comments:

  1. Go goose, go. Praying hard for you, Goose, and your doctors! Hang in there Suzanne! We're all rooting for you and wishing you the very, very best!

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    1. Thank you. You and your love and support really IS the best!

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  2. Sounds like your attitude is exactly in the right place. I do feel positivity in your words, and that's so great to see. This sounds goofy, but I love the picture at the end, in addition to my prayers and positive thoughts... I'd do the juju fingers, but I'm not sure what that is...kind of like jazz hands or something? (-: ...I'm also going to have that image in my head...of a goose with her eggs - big, fat, healthy ones.

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    1. Ha!! I imagine the ju-ju fingers as similar to what we used to have to do in cheerleading where we'd raise our arms and twinkle our fingers at the crowd!! Seemed like something I should aim at Goose, no!?! Kinda like jazz hands. :)

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  3. Love your attitude and that makes so much sense. She is fertile. Praying your goose lays the golden egg. Big hugs.

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  4. It's so hard not to compare your own IVF cycles to someone else's. I find myself comparing my OWN cycles to each other. Each cycle is so different. I'm sure Goose is cooking up some beautiful, high quality eggs. I know from experience that quality is deeeefinitely more important than quantity. There's no reason her eggs won't produce a handful of healthy blastocysts. Praying this week goes by peacefully for you. :)

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  5. Lifting you up in prayer Suzanne!!! Keep us updated!

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  6. Love the pic. ha! Go goose! Just keep looking at those awesome donor success rates for CCRM. You will be joining them soon. :)

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  7. Praying, praying, praying!!!! Keep us posted on your re group tomorrow! XOXO

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  8. I love the title! I'm a Christian so I'm going with praying and the ju ju fingers!! :) I'm so so so rooting for you guys . I am so sorry for all the un fun waiting. Results sound like they will be soon!! Go Goose!!

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  9. Yay! Go Goose!! Will be praying for you and Goose! Love the optimistic point of view in ur post!

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  10. I'm glad that what I said could somehow help. It always feels like assvice to me, when I post comments, but I do it anyway, just in case it helps.
    I'm glad that you feel more optimistic about this cycle, and that there is a regroup planned with your doc. I'm really hoping that the egg harvest is more than decent, and that you get quality blastocysts.
    My thoughts are with you, dear woman.

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  11. Praying like I've never prayed before! I pray that God fills you with peace and helps you transition through this next step. Go GOOSE- you've got this! Please keep us updated!

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  12. You and Goose are in my thoughts and prayers. Hang in there! The waiting for the next step can be so difficult. I'm hoping you are going to get some amazing eggs from Goose :)

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  13. what a sweet photo -- prayers going your way!

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  14. Praying! Can I just say I love the name goose! I think it is awesome.

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  15. Go Goose! Spirit fingers are waving!

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  16. I'm sending prayers your way my friend. So glad things are moving forward with goose. It probably feels like you're out of the loop because the "action" is happening to someone else. I would feel that way too. Hoping those 10 eggs are amazing and all fertilize. XOOX

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  17. Can I chime in as a three time donor who produced something like 9, 8, & 8 beautiful embryos. Quality is most certainly what you want! My first two transfers were two embryos transferred and two full term pregnancies. The third donation resulted in pregnancies, but miscarriages, because of uterus issues with the IM. Your goose is I'm sure a quality over quantity! Hoping and praying! XoX

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    1. Thank you so much for taking the time to comment on my blog. Especially from being on the other side. xoxo

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  18. 10 eggs?! That's great!!! Go Goose!!! Sending lots of positive thoughts your way!

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  19. I'm late with my comment, but read your post a while back. Sending many good thoughts your way.

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