Monday, October 14, 2013

Thank you, my dear Goose

The past few days have been riddled with anxiety. It all came down to these past few days and how many blasts we would have to transfer, how many chances we'd have, would we be able to try for a sibling...

In our heads, we kept saying that four would be good. We would be content if that number frozen had been four. If it were less than four, yes, it would definitely be a better shot than we've yet to have, but what if it didn't work? The pressure would really be on. I would have stressed over it. I have no doubt. But realistically, about half make it to freeze-quality blast. Four is realistic.

Six was what we wanted. What we hoped and prayed for. Six would give us multiple chances. It gives us options. But six, is 67% of nine. That seemed unlikely.

They said they wouldn't call us until today. However, we knew that the best quality would be frozen yesterday and any that they waited to continue to develop would be frozen today. Did I mention the wait has been excruciating?

SIX!! We have 6 perfect frozen blasts! (Quality: 2 - AA, 3 AB, 1 BA)

I am thrilled beyond words. In 2 1/2 years, this is the best news we've gotten since trying to conceive. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you, for all of the prayers and words of kindness and good thoughts directed toward my little embies.

I can't quit thinking about Goose. I wish I could hug her. I wish I could tell her how excited I am about all the chances that she's given me. I know that I thanked her in my letter, but even without knowing her, I feel so incredibly close to her. I will never, ever forget what a perfect stranger did for me. Regardless of her motivation, it is still a gift of life and I just hope and pray that my body can take what she started and create a cozy little home for one (or more) of these little ones.

Last bit of good news I have is about me. I finally started my mock cycle on Friday. I did not have a period, but they believe was because my lining was so thin, and they were comfortable starting regardless. So for the next few weeks, I'll be pumped full of hormones to try and figure out the right combination for a perfect FET cycle. I'll also have my Integrin biopsy on November 4th to determined whether or not I'll have to do two months of Depot Lupron before my FET. I hope not...but whatever it takes, I'll do.

All I know is today is a happy day for us. We've had so few, that I'm holding on to this one and I choose to believe that the wind is changing for us.

Much, much love to all of you for continuing to cheer me on. xoxo

27 comments:

  1. Ohhhh!!! You SO deserve this happy day and happy news! Yay!!! So excited for you. :) Six is great ... absolutely fantastic!!!

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  2. It is getting SO close to go time!! xoxo . I'm going to put in my prediction that you get pregnant with twins the first time.

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  3. YAAAAYYYYY! Such a long deserved stretch of good news! I'm SO happy for you, jump out of my chair, fist pump kind of happy! I cannot wait until transfer! Hoping that the mock cycle goes well and the good doctors at CCRM give you the go ahead very soon! Eeeeekkkkk!

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  4. Oh my gosh I feel like I can finally take a breath... a BIG sigh of relief for you, as I'm sure you feel the same way!! :) YAY, Suz! This is such amazing news! I am so beyond thrilled for you guys!!

    xoxo

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  5. I love hearing great news like this! CONGRATULATIONS!!! This is so exciting!

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  6. That is great news! So excited for you :)

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  7. This literally warms my heart!! I love it!! I HATED waiting while the embies grow because it's so dang human nature to go to worse casenario: none. Six is amazing!! I'm so pumped for you!!!!!!! I love it and I think the winds are changing too!!

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  8. Amazing news!!! Bring on the mock cycle!!! Wishing you the very best with it all!!

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  9. 6 blasts is wonderful, congratulations!! I'm so glad you are getting good news, finally, after this long road.
    Also, thanks for stopping by my blog and leaving these kind words.

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  10. This is such great news! HOORAY!

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  11. There could not be better news! Congrats to you and T! woo hoo!

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    1. Thank you!! Of course, that's just half the battle and the rest is up to me! I can't help but think this is going to be the tricky part!!

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    2. Well don't even go there in your brain sister! There will be no tricky part, because you are in such good hands, and they are leaving no stone unturned. I am def interested in seeing what your FET protocol will look like too, so feel free to write about specifics when it comes. Got my pom poms wavin over here!

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    3. Ha! Thank ya!! They've mentioned Estrace, Vivelle Patches, Endometrium AND PIO shots, so basically sounds like the kitchen sink. I'm sure a lot will hinder on these next few weeks of the mock!

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  12. Woo hoo!! Happy tears for happy news!!

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  13. I'm so excited for you, this really is so wonderful!!!!!!!! Love that you're in a happy place right now, xo :)

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  14. Such great news. This is so wonderful. SIX blasts. SIX!!! That's amazing.
    I'm glad to read you've started your mock cycle, because that's one more step towards the FET. So excited for you!

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  15. Such great news! Ah I am extremely happy for you, Suzanne. Hope everything continues to go smoothly for you.

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  16. Yay, yay, yay!!!! This is such, SUCH amazing news, Suzanne. Keep us posted!

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  17. HECK YES!!!!!!! Praise Jesus!!!!! I'm so so so extremely happy to see this update! 6 is a wonderful number. An amazing amount of chances! I'm so happy for you Suzanne! Good job Goose! I LOVE that a complete stranger gave you such a wonderful gift. An amazing act of kindness. This is the type of gift that makes me warm and fuzzy inside. There are good people in the world. Congrats! I hope that this mock trial goes uneventful and that you are ready to go for your FET very very soon!

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  18. This is such amazing news!! I am so incredibly happy for you Suzanne, you guys deserve this so much!! I can't wait to hear more great news in the near future :)

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  19. Yay for 6! I am so thrilled for you! I'm so excited that things are moving forward for you and I look forward to all the updates.

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  20. Yea!!! I am so happy about this!! That is awesome and now I'm just praying that you can do your FET early December at the very latest and end this very hard year with a very sticky, healthy, BFP! *hugs*

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  21. Yay! Yay! I'm sooo happy that you got the 6 you were praying for. Such great news. We will be biopsy buddies in a few weeks. I'm getting my integrin test on Nov 7th-ish. But I still have another retrieval so you'll be pregnant before I do my FET. ;)

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