Outside of the blog world I have someone that is so very dear to me that is waiting for what could be tragic news for her very long sought after pregnancy. She's at her twelve week mark when she should be breathing a sigh of relief, not this. She has meant literally the world to me this last year as we've traveled side by side through our infertility. She makes me laugh. During a year in which laughter has been a challenge, no less. I would give anything in the world to change what she's going through right now. Her heart is broken and there's nothing I can do to fix it. My dear, N...I'm hoping for the miracle that you so deserve.
This makes me ask...have I mentioned how much I hate infertility and the hell that it has brought upon my friends? On me? I know without a doubt that we have all been changed by what we've gone through. I hope that one day I can look at this and know that it made me a better person. Rather than a bitter one. I truly hope that's the case. For all of us.
The past week has been difficult for me to blog about my piddly mock cycle. It's so insignificant in comparison to what's going on around me. I will say it's not going well. At least it wasn't last Friday. I'm still on patches and have added in Estrace. I'll find out tomorrow if my lining has finally decided to cooperate. However, it's doubtful. It had a long, long, long way to go.