Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Denver...it is ON

My next several days are going to be crazy, so I want to give a quick update.

CCRM received the report from the sonohystogram this morning and they called me immediately. First they called and wanted the reports from my D&C. I offered these back in October and was told it wasn't necessary. Within an hour, they requested that I come to Denver for an office hysteroscopy. This was all VERY speedy for CCRM. Usually I hear from them at the very end of the day. I wish I hadn't had to force their hand with all of this, but at this point, that's neither here nor there.

While part of me would prefer to go right to the operative hysteroscopy, I do understand that Dr. G wants to see what's what in there to confirm the sonohystogram. I get it. With traveling to LA on Thursday - Sunday and to Kansas City for the week of Christmas, I was hoping they would squeeze me in next week.

They did. I'm booked for my hysteroscopy next Friday (December 20th). Talk about a crazy few weeks of travel!! But I'm more than happy to do it. I want to know exactly what we're dealing with. While I'm in Denver I'll be able to have a face to face sit down with Dr. G to have all my questions answered. What a major relief and WAY overdue.

The bad news. T is traveling for work next week and cannot go with me.

The fantastic news. A dear, dear friend that has been by my side for more than a year, though we've never met, is traveling to Denver to be with me for all of this. THIS is why the online infertility community and blog world means the absolute world to me. It has brought simply amazing women into my life that I will treasure always. I am beyond grateful and humbled by how quickly and on the spot she agreed to join me. Expect a night of laughs, tears and red wine!!

When finally turning my focus to donor eggs and accepting all that comes with that and the loss of a genetic connection, I never expected that I would end up in this situation. It scares me to think of the worse case scenario, but at the same time, I've had to...maybe just to prepare myself. But until I'm told that there is nothing left to do, I will continue to have hope that I can carry one of my six embryos and I will try and look at all the positives that have come with this journey.

A major positive...all of you.





32 comments:

  1. I'm glad to hear that CCRM is finally taking proper care of you! And how wonderful that a fellow blogger will be in Denver! Hoping that that visit will bring lots of good news and positive experiences.

    Also, the photos in your last post were so precious. Thanks for sharing.

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  2. Amazingly positive turn of events! Yay! I will be thinking of you during this next couple weeks of craziness. I'm just so glad they are seeing you so soon and that you won't be alone! Hoping for some good answers and next steps forward!

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    1. Thank you. I have no idea what will come of this, but I'm relieved that they are finally taking steps to figure it out, even if I did have to force their hand a bit!

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  3. So glad this is all being taken care of in such a timely manner & I'm also glad you followed your gut! It's amazing that an online friend is meeting you there for your peace of mind and I bet T feels better that you are not going to be alone too! I will be sending good thoughts to you. Xoxo

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  4. I'm sorry I haven't commented, I've been dealing with a family tragedy. I've been praying for you and following you. I'm so glad CCRM is getting you in asap and I know as scary as everything looks, I bet your body will be better than ever soon to house those beautiful embies that will become your baby(ies). Lots of love to you girl! I know how hard this is and thank God for all the support you have. *hugs*

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    1. I'm so sorry for your family. Sending you many hugs my dear friend.

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  5. That's so great that CCRM is getting you in so soon and how beautiful and amazing that one of your friends will be there with you! xoxo

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  6. I'm so glad you are able to get in on 12/20! How fun it will be to meet up with your dear friend. :) What's crazy is I'm going home to Colorado for Christmas on 12/20 ... arriving in Denver lol!

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    1. Oh that's funny!! Wonder if we'll be at the airport at the same time!? My flight out is at 2:25 pm.

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    2. It could totally happen! Aubrey bumped into Allison at the Denver airport last year... crazier things have happened!

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  7. It is on like Donkey Kong with a side of awesome sauce!!!! (Quoting Mason when he's pumped about something.) I think about you every day and am so glad we found each other. I'm so glad you will have someone with you on Denver. Such an amazing community of support. If I have only one Christmas wish, it's that this is all going to work out for you. You and T deserve it so very much. XOXO

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  8. wow, that is quick! And safe travels! I actually live in Kansas City so maybe we should meet up for lunch or something. Let me know!

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    1. Oh wow!! Would love to. I'll be there the 23rd - 29th!! Are you on the Kansas side or Missouri side? We'll be staying in Lenexa.

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  9. I'm so thankful that they were able to get you in so quickly! I'm hopeful that this is not the end, that they are going to have good news for you, and that surgery can fix EVERYTHING! Prayers for you my sweet friend!

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  10. I am so relieved and happy for you! Finally some answers! From following you for some time now, I've noticed that you are definitely in tune with your body and your guy is always right!!! So glad you stood your ground! Praise The Lord for answers. I'll be praying for you every day Suzanne! That's a promise!

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  11. This is great news! Things are moving quickly and you will finally be getting some answers! I wish I lived closer, I would totally love to hang out with you :) Have safe travels and I am excited to hear your next updates!

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  12. Wow! That's amazing that they got on the ball with all of this so quickly. I'm hoping that the amazing turn of events continues. You are one strong, amazing, and beautiful person... and I wish nothing but the very best for you. Hoping you have a good time in CO accompanied by a good, supportive friend. xoxo

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  13. Holy cow that was fast! I'm so glad you have someone that can be there with you even though hubby can't, that's really wonderful. I'm thinking of you and sending lots of hugs your way :) xoxoxo

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  14. That is so great! What a sweet friend to travel with you!!! I hope all continues to go well- even better than you expect :)

    Can you email me your mailing address please, if that's okay?

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  15. Fingers crossed for you!! Soo glad you won't be alone and that you are able to meet a lovely support!! Happy things are finally moving and rather quickly for you!!

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  16. Wow! CCRM is definitely getting on the roll of getting things done. I'm glad they were able to squeeze I in so quickly. Wishing you the best Suzanne. I hope this surgery solves everything and u can move forward to becoming a wonderful momma. (: how nice of your friend to offer to go in such short notice. Glad u will have some great company.

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  17. I sure should hope that CCRM would expedite the explorative hysteroscopy, after dismissing you for weeks when there actually WAS a problem! I am pretty miffed on your behalf, dear friend. Aren't you paying them the great majority of your life savings? Shouldn't they be actually listening to you?
    I'm also very impressed (proud even, if I'm allowed to be) that you took matters into your own hands and talked to your OB. I hope this is something you can carry forward with you in your life: when your gut tells you there is something the matter, you listen to it. I think that's the mark of someone who is very wise, very attuned to herself (and often others).
    I feel a ton of renewed hope for you. If the uterine issues can be dealt with, I think you'll be looking at motherhood in the very near future. I feel very hopeful of that.

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  18. I'm glad it is working out for you to go in right away. So glad you are holding onto your hope my friend. I know it is hard. Thinking of you. Hoping for safe travels for you.

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  19. SO sweet that someone you have never bet is going with you! I love that!! Hopeful for good news sweet girl!

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  20. So glad you are able to get in and I will definitely be checking in to see how your appointment goes. I was there this morning and found out my mock cycle was a bust so now I wait for the end of day phone call with next steps. I'm not going to give up but hearing your results could help me with more questions to ask. Good luck and I will be thinking about you!

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  21. Suzanne, I am very hopeful for you with this appointment and I'm so thankful that you will have a friend there. Thank you to whoever you are for taking care of our lovely friend!!!

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  22. Just want you to know I'm thinking of you today as you get your hysteroscopy and hopefully get some good answers! Hope you are holding up with all the travel, and that you'll be returning home with much more peace of mind than when you came. xo

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  23. Thinking of you and wishing I was there. xoxo

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  24. Thinking of you and praying surgery went well. Xoxo merry Christmas my friend!

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