Wednesday, May 28, 2014

Ups and Downs of Transfer Week

Well I've been on a crazy roller coaster this week.

First, on Friday, I found out that I had mixed up the meds I was supposed to take last week. Well, CCRM messed up too, to be clear. They told me over the phone to start Dexamethosone last Monday, well I didn't write it down and by the time I got home and looked at my meds that I had, the only one that started with a "D" was Doxycycline. So that's what I took. I take partial responsibility for sure, but when I looked at my pharmacy order later when the mistake was realized, it was never on there. So I'm going 50/50 on this one with them. So basically I ended my antibiotic 4 days earlier than I should have. They said it was fine, but still, you never want anything to be off on these cycles.

I was told over the phone on Friday (and emailed with instructions) to come in again on Monday morning for an ultrasound to check the fluid again and blood work. I made my appointment, and set off to enjoy my weekend.

Sunday morning I got a call from CCRM's lab asking where I was and if I was planning on coming in for my post-trigger blood work. "Excuse me?" I explained what I had been told and she said she'd check with a nurse on call and they both said Monday was sufficient. Fine. Dandy. Then I get another call from someone else at the lab asking the same thing. Now I'm freaking out. I left a message with the nurses and again, they still said we'll just see you tomorrow.

Okay, so little tidbit of info...I'm a little OCD. So all of this chaos…does not sit well with me.

Monday morning, I show up for my ultrasound and there is a LOT more fluid than there had been on Friday. Not only that, but they were measuring a 2mm lining!! My heart literally fell to the floor. I thought for sure they would cancel. They took us to a room, a nurse said that they would send off all the info and I'd hear from my regular nurse on Tuesday. I had labs done and left.

A bit later, they called with the progesterone results. It was 37. They wanted it higher than 5. So finally, something they were really pleased with. About an hour later, the nurse called again to say she decided to go ahead and page Dr. G about the fluid. He wanted me to come in on Tuesday for another ultrasound and to have the fluid aspirated by him. Gah.

So Tuesday…after not sleeping at all because not only do I have no lining, but my uterus is filled with fluid, I'm pretty much banking on this cycle being scrapped. We went to CCRM, started the ultrasound and were shocked. Like jaw on the floor shocked.

No fluid. Not. One. Drop. Lining was 6mm and there was a triple stripe. The ultrasound tech asked me if I was a different person. She kept asking if I had had a procedure to drain the fluid the day prior? Nope. And…nope. She then went and got another ultrasound tech to come in and confirm what she was seeing. All in all, it was probably the longest ultrasound I've ever had.

They tracked Dr. G down and he said, perfect, she's free to go, we'll see her Friday.

I know that I have many, many of you that are sending prayers, good thoughts, vibes and all kinds of other goodness my way, and I cannot thank you enough. It makes my heart swell to know how many people care about us. My brother-in-law and his wife live in Denver and took us to their church on Sunday night. It was very touching how we were prayed over by everyone there. Whatever the reason for the turn around, I can just say that I feel all the love and support around me. It it means everything.

I still have a thin lining. Nothing is changing that, but things at least look way better than they have in a long time. This still has a better chance of not working…but I actually have hope that maybe this time, I can be on the other side of the odds…the side that dreams do actually come true.

Think of me Friday...this is it! 

Love to you all...

*Several comments have questioned the earlier ultrasound. Just as a reminder I have had fluid in every ultrasound the past 6 months, including the previous 3 ultrasounds this cycle. 

25 comments:

  1. Suzanne - almost the same thing happened to me with my retrieval cycle at CCRM. I was at the Park Meadows Mall in the middle of my stim cycle when a nurse called with my daily blood and med update and she said "keep taking the dexamethasone and keep the rest of your drugs the same". I started to panic and said "what is dexamethasone ????". My nurse had left it off of my drug order sheet and I hadn't noticed the "Dex at bedtime" on my calendar. The worst part was when my actual nurse called the next day she admitted she forgot it on my drug orders but there was no apology or anything. All she said was "if you're going to miss one drug during your stim cycle that's the one to miss I guess". Doesn't make a person feel good when you're paying so much and have flown across the country!! That's a long way of saying I know that feeling and it's not a good one!! You know I'll be thinking of you Friday!! xoxo Caitlin

    ReplyDelete
  2. Oh what a miracle! We will continue to pray for you! God bless you!

    ReplyDelete
  3. Oh, wow! I wonder if something wasn't amiss at the earlier u/s, like maybe something wrong with the machine? Otherwise, you have an AMAZING body!!! Hoping for no more stress as you lead up to Friday.

    ReplyDelete
  4. Amazing!! Miracles do happen. Hoping everything goes well this Friday.

    ReplyDelete
  5. This is quite a rollercoaster you're on. Like Brianna I wonder if something was wrong in the earlier ultrasound... but either way, so happy to hear that things look good and you are set for your transfer. Will keep thinking many good thoughts for you and your uterus and that little embryo.

    ReplyDelete
  6. Great news!! So pleased for you, here's hoping this cycle is the one! Xoxo

    ReplyDelete
  7. Have mercy, I'm a ball of emotions this morning. This is the second blog I've cried over and it's not even 9am. I want this so badly for you; I swear my bones ache with how badly I want this. More than I want this for me, I want this for you. On my knees for you, my sweet friend.

    Call/text if you need anything! Let me know your transfer time when you hear!

    ReplyDelete
  8. Cheering and praying you on Suzanne! This could absolutely be your miracle cycle!!! :o)

    ReplyDelete
  9. I am holding my breath, and doing my form of praying because I want this Sooooooooooooooo badly for you, Suzanne. It's your turn now. YOUR turn to be a mom. I close my eyes and I can see it: pregnancy updates on this very blog, from you. I know it's a longshot, but miracles happen.I believe in that. I believe you will be a mom.

    ReplyDelete
  10. Your body definitely likes to keep things interesting! I have no doubt that prayer can be powerful enough to turn events completely around. Praying for you always my friend!

    ReplyDelete
  11. I will be thinking about you all day tomorrow! I really believe there is power in prayer and the fluid going away proves that.. Plus your lining going from 2-6?? Everything is falling into place. Prayers and sticky thoughts!!

    ReplyDelete
  12. Oh my gosh I can not imagine going through all of those crazy emotions. My heart is So happy for your good news and I'm praying so hard for a successful transfer on Friday followed by good news! Hang in there you are doing great - almost there!

    ReplyDelete
  13. That office owes you a huge apology for all the confusion and stress they seem to be causing!
    However, this is so amazing! Yay for no fluid and your lining thickening up!!! You will be in my thoughts and prayers especially tomorrow!!!

    ReplyDelete
  14. What a terrible emotional roller coaster, but so glad things looked better on Tuesday. How frustrating about the mix up with the meds and all the phone calls - you pay for a place like CCRM because they are the best and mix ups like that shouldn't happen. So glad it didn't mean anything serious. Hang in there and good luck!!!

    ReplyDelete
  15. Crossed fingers for you! Good luck!

    ReplyDelete
  16. So frustrating and stressful. I've been thinking about you all week..and will send positive vibes tomorrow.

    ReplyDelete
  17. How stressful - indeed! You would think as much as you are paying this clinic they could get their act together. Grace, Caroline, grace!!! On another note, LOVE this news!! Yes, Lord - we praise you - we believe!

    ReplyDelete
  18. sending you lots and lots of prayers that this cycle is IT for you!

    ReplyDelete
  19. I'm on pins and needles over here! I got stressed out just reading all of that. I can only imagine how you have felt this week.
    Praying for your miracle! You will be on my mind all day tomorrow!

    ReplyDelete
  20. Enjoy this. Rember every second because This. May. Be. The. One. XOXO

    ReplyDelete
  21. TOMORROW!! Lots and lots of prayers and good thoughts for you!!

    ReplyDelete
  22. You deserve to have everyone rooting to for you and tons of support. This is been a long road and we're all hoping that you're almost to the end of it. Hugs!

    ReplyDelete
  23. Okay, today is the day! I am always excited for my TTC sisters, but you, Suzaane, hold a special place. I am super excited for you!!!!! See? Miracles have already begun to happen!

    ReplyDelete
  24. Hoping to see a transfer update. Been thinking about you all day.

    ReplyDelete