Monday, June 2, 2014

It Was Finally Our Day

We're back home!!

I have to say…leaving was very emotional for me. So many wonderful things happened while we were in Colorado, that it was very hard to say goodbye.

My post last week recapped all the medical drama with ultrasounds, meds and fluid. This post, I'd like to recap all the great moments we had.

On Memorial Day, we took a day trip with our friends and family to the zoo in Colorado Springs.


Not sure this needs anymore explanation!! 

I also received this beautiful bouquet of flowers from my sweet friend, Amanda. Those of you who follow her blog, know her kindness and love is an inspiration. I especially loved that since we weren't staying at a hotel, she took a little extra initiative and conspired with my husband to make sure these got to me. Love her. Love her. Love her. They were beautiful right up until the day we came home.


One evening we were able to spend with some friends that I grew up with. We realized that we had known each other for 30 years!! These wonderful people were dear, dear friends of my mothers and it meant so much to be able to see them. It's such a lovely experience to be able to still have contact with people that were such an important part of your life when you were a child and to have them give such warmth and well wishes during a time when I needed it most. 

T's brother and his wife moved to Denver recently and we were able to see them most every day that we were in town. They're building a great life there and we're so happy for them. Reminds us how much we wish we lived closer to one another. They got up extra early on Friday to have a special "pre-transfer" breakfast with us. I could never thank them enough for being so supportive and loving to us during this time. 


I also was able to spend some quality time with my sister-in-law. We see each other over holidays, but it's not often that her and I get to really enjoy some good girl time together. We enjoyed long walks, mani/pedi's, shopping, talking and well, eating. I know how busy she is and was so grateful that she made us (ME) such a priority last week. I hope she knows how much I love her and how happy I am to call her a sister. 


We were in Denver for a solid 10 days. That's a long time away from home. It's also a long time to stay in a hotel room, especially when we're dealing with trying to work while in Colorado and being on bed rest and the cost of that kind of extended stay, etc. When we told our close friends that we'd be out there, there was no hesitation. Obviously, we'd stay with them. They're generosity and kindness to us during this time still overwhelms me. They have 3 children that are in their last few weeks of school, yet they welcomed us into their home, allowed us to disrupted their lives and routines and made us feel as comfortable as we would have been in our own home. There are no words for how thankful I am to have them as friends. People like this are rare these days. And not only them, but their children as well. Children that were so concerned about how much I "moved" while on bed rest and just curled up by my side for two days. These children melted my heart.  It's only been a day and I miss them so much. 




Finally my husband…what would I do without him? He's so kind, caring and best of all…he loves me to the moon (and back about a gazillion times). 




Hope he realizes that as much as he loves me, I love him about triple that. 

As I said before, the doctor said that the transfer went beautifully. Our 4AA thawed like a champ and if a miracle is possible, could be OUR baby. There's nothing I want more. Even with our low odds, I cling to hope that this is possible. 

Here's a few more pics documenting transfer day...




 

I even wore my mom's bracelet and ring all week for good luck. 

I tend to have a lot of anxiety. To the point that I sometimes have panic attacks or "nervous tummy syndrome"…as my bestie's daughter would say, "tummy pooptitis". Never fails. Important phones calls, doctors visits, ultrasounds, everything sends me into a nervous tizzy. 

Last week in what should have been my most nerve-wracking moments of my 3-year-trying-to-conceive history, I was the most relaxed and calm I've ever been. I credit all of the people above for giving me that wonderful gift. If anything, I was very emotional during the transfer...to have finally made it to that moment.

Our beta is scheduled for next Monday (6/9). I know that the trigger shot is still in my system, so at this point, I'm unsure if I'll try and test that out, or if I'll wait it out till Monday. 

TBD…

But we finally had our day, our moment…in one week, we'll see what comes of it...







56 comments:

  1. Hugs and love to you sweet friend!

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  2. Oh how I love this post! What amazing friends and family you have.
    So glad you were able to get so much love while out in CO. Amanda is THE SWEETEST!! Love her! And you look amazing on bed rest, you pretty mama :). I'm praying so hard for you. It's your turn, my friend. I will be holding you so close to my heart praying for the best news ever on 6/9! XO

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  3. Oh how I love this! And can I just say that you and T are the CUTEST thing ever! Seriously, he's so adorable with his little pre-transfer selfie! I'm so glad you two had a good trip and could enjoy your days... it makes the travel so much more worth it!

    I'm SO glad the flowers got to you and brightened up your stay. They are the exact same ones that I sent to Aubrey, so we're going to hope they are just as lucky for you!

    7 more sleeps... thinking of you ALL THE TIME!

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    1. Amanda, you are so amazing. What would I do without you!?!?! xoxox

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  4. sssssssooooooooooooooo many prayers for a sticky!!!!!!!!!!

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  5. What amazing friends you have and the flowers are beautiful!! Prayers this is the one :)

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  6. Thinking of you and hoping and praying for the best possible outcome. I live in Colorado - looks like you enjoyed our beautiful weather and some good local spots.

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    1. Colorado was amazing. We absolutely love it out there!! :)

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  7. Love this post it fills my heart with happiness that you were surrounded by wonderful friends and family. I've said it a million times our blog community is the best and our Amanda one of a kind. We are all cheering you on and hoping and praying for the very best news. Sending you love and peace.

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  8. After all this time, you finally got to transfer! So exciting!

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    1. Right?? I was so overwhelmed with emotion just walking into my transfer room. I couldn't believe I finally made it to that moment!

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  9. You are the cutest thing ever!!!! Loved reading all the fun things you got to do - what a great gift you had family there to spend time with and I love that you have a peace! Praying for you!

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    1. You're the best. Thank you so much!! xoxo

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  10. It sounds like things couldn't have been better!! Thinking of you!! xoxo

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  11. I'm so happy to hear you had such amazing support beside you during this transfer. Hoping for a smooth 2WW with two lines waiting for you at the end!

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    1. I certainly hope so!! Wouldn't that be amazing?

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  12. This is such an awesome post!! I love all the support, encouragement, and happy moments. After all the sorrow and heartbreak you've been through I am hoping and praying this is the beginning of a new life for you. You are PUPO!!!

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    1. Been thinking about you!! Not sure when you're testing, or if you're testing or waiting for beta. I'm praying with all my heart!! Stick baby stick!

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  13. While it's so shitty that you have to go though this, I'm so happy that you were able to make it in to such a fun week. Almost makes me feel bad for people who conceive through boring old sex...

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    1. Ha!! Who'd want to be one of "those" people!?!? ;)

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  14. Love love love this post! So happy that you had your day and were surrounded by love and friendship!!!!

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    1. It really was a special week. No matter what happens...

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  15. Love the flowers, the photos, and the fact that you are finding joy amidst the journey. It really does make all the difference to be able to live your life when in Rome and just take the good that you can from it. You are beautiful when you're smiling. :D

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  16. This post absolutely made my entire day! I love all of the happy smiles in all of these pictures! I hope the next 6 days fly by for you. I cannot wait to hear your beta results! Hoping, praying, and believing your miracle is growing.... sending lots of hugs your way! You're such a strong woman.

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  17. Such great friends and family! Your husband sounds amazing.. I will be praying and throwing as much baby dust as I can your way until beta!!

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  18. Yay yay yay! And you look freaking adorable. I was on the couch with my husband and made a happy noise while reading and he stared at me funny so I told him the WHOLE story. I am so blessed to be a part of your journey and as mentioned before you are one of the few that I WANT to see pregnant!! Holy mother! You have fought so hard and o long and are so close. LOVE to you. By the way, I would like to return your sweet favor when you sent me that journal. I have a little gift for you guys! Can you email me your address (hollybenson10@yahoo.com). Much love!!

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    1. Thank you so much, sweet Holly. Email sent.

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  19. I don't know you very well, but I just want you to know that we are praying on bended knee that you get your positive test result on Monday! You deserve this so much and I know the prayer warriors are fighting for you. You and your husband are absolutely adorable and we wish you nothing but the best. May a miracle be in the making right now- God bless!

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    1. Thank you so very much for all the prayers. It means to world to have so many wonderful ladies cheering me on. xoxo

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  20. I totally teared up reading this. I hope so much that this is your shot!! Sticky vibes your way and hopes for a relaxing 2ww!

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  21. I'm so glad you finally made it to this point! I'm hoping that this is it for you and you get a great result on Monday!

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  22. Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful! Fingers crossed and sticky bean thoughts!!

    Quick question though: if you used donor eggs, why would you have triggered? Surely any hCG in your system would be produced by an implanted embie? Have I missed something?

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    1. Because we did an FET stim protocol that was "supposed" to give my lining a head start with the estrogen-priming, then when the stims were added in, the hope was that my ovaries would also create follicles (and in turn estrogen) on their own as well. I then had to do a trigger so that I would ovulate any follicles that my body was growing. So as of today, I'm 10dp trigger. There would have been no way that an HPT would have shown up on Sunday only 2dpt, so it was most definitely from that trigger shot. It's confusing, I know!! They were trying to be aggressive with me!

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  23. I loved reading this post and seeing your beautiful smile in the pictures. I am hoping, believing and praying for you sugars! You have such a wonderful husband and support system! That is simply amazing and something to be so thankful for I am sure. I can't wait to read the post where it says, "IT WORKED!" Hugs!

    waitingforbabybird.com

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  24. I hope and pray this is your miracle baby!!! So excited for you!!!! ❤️❤️❤️

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  25. I'm so glad you had such a wonderful experience for this transfer. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for your miracle. Good Luck!

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  26. Look at that adorable giraffe and that gorgeous smile! Your week sounds magical - a perfect preface for a long awaited miracle. Praying for you, Suzanne. :)

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  27. What an amazingly supportive community you have. I'm not surprised; you are incredibly warm and kind over the internet. I can hardly imagine how much that is magnified in person. I'm so glad you have a great team supporting you. And boy, what a perfect transfer. No matter what happens next, you had this day. No one can ever take it away.
    Keeping much hope for you in my heart.

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  28. What a wonderful tribute to this trip. I'm so glad you finally got to T day, and am thinking so many good thoughts for you.

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  29. Suzanne, I just found your blog and finished reading all of your posts from the last few years. You have been through so much and your resilience astounds me. I hope with all of my heart that this is IT for you and T! <3

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  30. Just want to send you sticky vibes! I want this so much for you and your DH. I am so happy you got to have a transfer and you are officially PUPO. Praying for awesome news Monday!

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  31. Yay for you Suzanne! This is so so big and all of my prayers are coming your way. Why shouldn't you get your miracle? You absolutely deserve it!

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  32. I love, love, love how happy you look in all of these pictures! I am so excited for you and am so happy that your body finally cooperated. You have been through so much, you deserve this!!! Praying for you, can't wait to hear GREAT results very soon :)

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