Monday, July 23, 2012

Crystal Clear Signs

I'm OCD, I admit it. Sometimes I get a bit frantic over things and decisions I make. Simple things like, did I pick the right color of that top I like, or shoes. Other things that send me in a tale-spin are things like baby dancing. When to do it, how long in between and when can we call it good? I've overall felt very confident this weekend as far as timing goes. But I'm a black and white kind of girl. I need to see obvious signs. I did have some what felt like possible O cramps on Saturday evening and again on Sunday. Even a little today to be honest. I woke up this morning expecting to see a temperature shift. I was surprised that it remained steady as it has all month. So now I don't know what that means. Did I ovulate or not? It's so stressful. Was just wanting it to be crystal clear so that I could sit back and know that I'm officially in the 2ww. Of course, its' never that simple for me.

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  1. *hugs* I know what you mean. I like when things are spelled out during my cycle. I hate those days where it's like, I'm not really sure what's going on. Today is like that for me. I hate that the only real answer is to wait another day, sometimes more.... You could have O'd late yesterday and the shift not present until tomorrow.

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  2. Awe. Thank you. I know it's the same for all the ladies that have been TTC for a long while. I'm just ready for something to be easy!! It's a Monday, what better day than today for a vent day.

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  3. I say you've more than earned your vent. Plus it's easier to move on once it's out there. I know right now I'm frustrated because for the past four cycles my +OPK came CD 12. Today is CD 12, I have to squint to even see the second line. That's as negative as anything I've ever seen. So, one of those wth is going on? Am I going to O later? Will tomorrow it just randomly be positive? Maybe I'm having an anavulatory cycle. Sigh... Just no idea. I'm letting it go for now. I'm DOR, so most of my problem is Oing too early and having immature eggs. With acu and herbs my O date is around CD 14 instead of around CD 9, so I'm happier, this is just odd. Maybe good odd though. Don't want to rush the perfect follie you know.

    Okay, totally sorry for going on about my issue on your blog, lol.

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  4. I don't mind at all! I hope that you're follie is just in there cooking a little more! I had the same thing this cycle. I typically get my positive OPK on CD 11 or 12, but this cycle on CD 12, it was super faint. Of course, that was the same day I went in and my follicle was over 20mm! So who knows. My first cycle of Clomid I completely missed my LH surge. It was so upsetting. Then when I had my p4 draw, it was 47! I feel like all I do is POAS and stress over lines. KMFX that you get your OPK + tomorrow! Let me know!

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  5. Ha, okay! I will!! One never knows either. To be honest, I haven't "felt" this cycle from the get go, so it's like whatever, let me O, let my 2ww go by so I can have another crack at it.... I do feel some twinges, so maybe my LH is just going to go from nothing to BAM. Testing 3x a day right now just to make sure I don't miss anything. I see my acu tomorrow too, so I can get his take on the matter.

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  6. I have acupuncture tomorrow too! Hopefully it will help us both settle down a bit. :)

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  7. Don't let the temp shift or lack thereof stress you out. It could just be a month that it takes a slow rise or you could have ovulated really late at night/early morning. Mine temp has only done that once that I know of, but it can happen. I bet you'll see the shift tomorrow!

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