Emotional Moments - 10 dpo

Here I sit, a few minutes after a phone call with my doctor's office, who had relatively good news. My progesterone level was 48. Similar to last month. A very good number. It shows, yet again, a strong ovulation. However, as soon as I hung up the phone, the tears came. I know in my heart it didn't happen this month. (Aside from the BFN today) I know 10 dpo is still technically early, but I just don't feel it.

I think all of this just really scares me. I'm concerned that maybe there is a complication from the multiple D&C's. T's sperm analysis was great. So that's fine. We DTD 3 days prior, on O day and 2 days after. We got all the right days, just like the previous 5 cycles. So what gives? This is my heartache today.

We leave for vacation in a few hours. It's much needed. Time with just T and I to relax, eat good food, shop and well, lets face it, most likely partake in some very good wine. So I'm taking this moment to shed a few tears then I'm going to try my hardest to just enjoy our first "alone" vacation since our honeymoon. It's husband and wife time. Not TTC time.