Thursday, November 29, 2012

Fast forward, please?

One would normally think I'm wanting to fast forward through the two week wait. Of course, I do want that. I'm anxious to know if our efforts this month have worked. But actually, I haven't been thinking or stressing about the 2ww as much this time. Whether it's stress from other places or just being so f'ing busy at work and life in general, I really just want to fast forward to some relative calmness and peace in my life.

This week has been crap. Everything happened so fast last week and I was so hyped up on the good response that this week has really been well, a huge let down. My emotions are going from such highs and lows, I can't really keep up...and it's draining.

Of course, this is the point in my cycle, where I try to avoid alcohol, just in case. However, I need a gigantic glass of wine in all kinds of desperate ways right now. It's weeks like these that I wonder how much longer I can stay in this game. Is all of this going to be worth it if my mental health doesn't survive?

Trying to keep the faith, but this week has been very, very hard on so many levels.


4 comments:

  1. Hey, I am not sure if this will help, but I hope you can take some semblance of comfort in knowing that there are other people out there, in similar situations as you, who are hoping, wishing, and praying for you. I commented on your blog a few days ago. We are on the same days with our IUI cycle this month. And I too am hating that I can't have a glass of wine or a nice cold beer. Thursday nights are usually when I like to indulge in an adult beverage or two (or four...) while I watch my favorite shows. And yeah, not happening tonight. Blaaaahh. It's so cruel. We can't get pregnant, but yet can't drown our frustrations in booze either. Ha! Wow. I sound like a complete lush. ;) Feel free to email me if you ever need to vent. I think my email is posted under the contact section of our blog. :) Hang in there!!

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  2. Damn that two week wait. Why is it that it always spurs a wine craving too?! I am so stalking you for a BFP this cycle girlie! Hang in there. Not much longer and you'll know!

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  3. Drink that glass of wine. Drink till it's pink... just saying. I had several drinks the day before I got my BFP. It's all good! GOOD LUCK!!

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  4. I am hoping that your emotions are wacky because there's a baby brewing in there. Really praying and keeping everything crossed on the BFP!!! I am so sorry for all the stress in your life right now, that is def no fun and I also say drink 'til it's pink! *hugs*

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