One would normally think I'm wanting to fast forward through the two week wait. Of course, I do want that. I'm anxious to know if our efforts this month have worked. But actually, I haven't been thinking or stressing about the 2ww as much this time. Whether it's stress from other places or just being so f'ing busy at work and life in general, I really just want to fast forward to some relative calmness and peace in my life.
This week has been crap. Everything happened so fast last week and I was so hyped up on the good response that this week has really been well, a huge let down. My emotions are going from such highs and lows, I can't really keep up...and it's draining.
Of course, this is the point in my cycle, where I try to avoid alcohol, just in case. However, I need a gigantic glass of wine in all kinds of desperate ways right now. It's weeks like these that I wonder how much longer I can stay in this game. Is all of this going to be worth it if my mental health doesn't survive?
Trying to keep the faith, but this week has been very, very hard on so many levels.