I'm a train wreck.
Maybe it's time for a Google break. I certainly think that my hesitancy to completely trust my RE stems from Dr. Moron that completely screwed me. After all the struggles I've gone through to try and pick the right doctor for IVF, I feel like the night before the dawn and here I am, questioning EVERYTHING.
Quickly, I am on CD 35. I had super light spotting yesterday, but it's stopped. I know my periods are always very light, but that was pretty light even for me. I couldn't even call it cycle day 1, so I'm in limbo at the moment. Still waiting on this next cycle to begin and I'm supposed to then start the birth control pills.
Back to my crisis. I'm on several threads for women with diminished ovarian reserve (DOR). All I keep reading on those threads, when I google, is that I am on the WRONG protocol. That I should NOT be taking the massive amounts of stims that they are planning for me. That we should be going for quality, not quantity because, well, we already know that quantity isn't an option for me.
So I started looking at CCRM in Denver. Their stats for women with DOR are amazing. Unlike any I've seen anywhere. I originally made a phone consultation for May, thinking, okay, if this first IVF fails, I've got a back up plan. Then I started wondering, am I just wasting $17k by doing this plan that I'm not sure is right for me? I looked up the data for Chicago and while when comparing to Indianapolis, their stats are better. When comparing with Denver...well, there is no comparison. It's 6.7% vs. 70% success rates. So do we put this off, wait for the consultation, then pay a little extra for hopefully a better plan?
I spoke with CCRM again and they were able to get me a new phone consult in 2 weeks, which was amazing considering their wait time. She also said while typically it's 3-4 months before the start of treatment, it can happen a lot sooner if the doctor thinks that's necessary.
Question is...what do I do for these next 2 weeks? Do I start the birth control pills anyway? Do I wait to hear if CCRM recommends the same protocol as FCI and if so, stick with my original plan? Or do I just walk away from Chicago? It's such a hard decision because I feel like I've been out of the game for so long...since November. Time is of the essence for me and I feel like road blocks keep popping up left and right.
What is the right decision anymore?