To me. It matters a lot.
Many of you that have followed me for a while will remember my struggles with my first jackass (ahem...RE). In the end of that "relationship" I was nearly broken feeling completely abandoned and even berated. Since then, I've been bouncing from consultation to consultation, trying to find the right doctor to treat DOR and unfortunately none of those options have been local.
So back in early February we had decided on Chicago. Then after MUCH research, many opinions of other gals on threads and blogs, I had my consult with CCRM. That went really well too. While most women go to CCRM as their last choice, we decided, maybe it should just be our first choice. The only problem is, the first round of IVF can tell you so much. I haven't had a first round yet. I've had 2 IUI's with a fine response, at least for the low dose of meds I was on. Our question is now...do we spend the money on CCRM right off the bat? We'd be months away from getting pregnant, IF it even works. I had been already to start IVF with Chicago in March.
So much has happened in the last month since my laporoscopy. Well, I can tell you what hasn't happened...my period has NOT happened. I went in for blood work and another ultrasound yesterday and my beta is finally down to 5. The ultrasound showed my lining being very thin and Chicago told me I was ready to start bcps TOMORROW. Potential retrieval date of May 4th (ish).
Whoa. Step back. Here I was convinced I was going to just go out to Denver soon, go through all the rounds of testing, then figure out the whole schedule of events from there...but here's Chicago saying we're ready to go...now.
This was music to my ears. I have to say, I was intrigued. Then my nurse, who mind you, has been MY nurse for 2 months. She's checked in on me, called me, emailed me, sat by the phone and even waited for my call one day, seriously, she answered on the first ring...they never actually ANSWER the phone. Then she told me, we're going to do this. We're going to take good care of you. She said, you were born the same year as my daughter, I'm going to take care of you as if you were.
Guess what, peeps. That was what I've needed to hear. From someone. Anyone. I broke and I literally wanted to crawl through the phone and into her arms. So yes. I'm going to change my mind AGAIN, cause well, it's what I do, and we're getting started with IVF. I start my pills tomorrow.
I'm going to spend my weekend on the beach with a bunch of girls for my sisters bachelorette party and just relax and breathe a little.
I'm excited and I'm nervous. I know that my protocol is the antagonist. I've heard a lot on either side. Some people say that's not right for DOR or that you shouldn't be on bcps, but I'm going to trust my doctor and that he knows what he's doing.
Lastly, I've been loving all the support from all of you gals. You are all awesome. Some that have been with me for a while and all of the newbies. I love all of your comments. Seriously. Thank you. I could never do this without you all.