We are home!! So sorry for my short ramble from the flight the other night. I was on the plane and had the slowest wifi that was making it hard to post. I never even proofed it, so it probably made zero sense. Regardless...moving on. I also can't believe it's taken me so long to update. So many of you have emailed and checked in on me and I really appreciated it. Work has had me crazy busy this week.
We got into Denver late Monday night. I slept awful even being as tired as I was. I had way to much running through my head. Tuesday morning, I was so nervous, and let me tell you, my tummy does NOT like being nervous.
Our first appointment of the day was with the doctor. We really liked him. We've heard so many good things about Dr. Schoolcraft and Dr. Surrey, and I often wondered about not choosing one of them, but I have to say I really, really liked Dr. Gustofson. He's so gentle and kind and I believe that's what I needed right now. Not to mention anyone that can perform a hysteroscopy and I barely feel it...is quite good in my opinion!
We talked a lot about my failed IVF and my DOR. We already know where I stand on my chances with my eggs. We don't feel like at this point we've given up on our eggs, but really, my eggs have given up on me. We're actually in a really good place about donor eggs and after our conversation with Dr. G, we're really excited. I haven't been able to say that in a really long time.
T had "his" appointment. Which well, went well. They were really happy with his motility and counts. So all good there, though I knew we would be. He's always been in the normal/good range.
We signed all of our consent forms and then met with the donor nurse. She was awesome. She met with us for close to an hour and a half. She went over every detail and every step of the donor cycle. I didn't feel rushed and she answered all my questions.
We then met with the business office (the super fun part) and paid the deposit for our cycle. I also got the nice little surprise that they were submitting all the ODWU costs through my insurance which covers all diagnostics. LOVED that. So we spent much less than we anticipated. Since I've met my deductible, we should have any out of pocket costs other than T's testing which was minimal compared to mine.
After lunch, we did our blood work...loved how thrilled Trevor looked, so I couldn't help this one...
and then met with the psychologist. This was our least favorite appointment of the day. Not because we are against telling our child how they came into the world. We just felt she was very biased about her opinions on how to handle the conversations with the child. This is something that we've discussed very little and had decided that we were speak to a therapist and read lots of books after we were successful with the cycle to figure out the best direction for us. We had not made a decision. Only the decision to not tell our family and friends that we were doing donor eggs until that decision was made. It was very odd to have a therapist telling us her opinion and what she thought we should do and how we should do it. T was not a fan of her, but at the end of the day, knew we didn't have to see her again.
Our last appointment of the day was the hysteroscopy. I was very nervous because I've only had this done under anesthesia and have heard some stories about how much it hurts. As I said earlier, I barely felt it.
So the funny stories from the day...because if you know my husband and I, you'll know we really try to have fun and laugh...even through the struggles we've had, still seems like we're able make that happen.
The two "moments" came while I was in stirrups waiting for the doctor to come in and perform the hysteroscopy. First, I was wearing little slip on shoes. I will mention I have a SUPER sensitive nose and had this awful feeling that my feet were stinky from the shoes I was wearing all day and my feet were going to be in the doctors face! After hemming and hawing over this for a good 5 minutes, I hopped off the table (paper cover and all) and bathed my feet in the Purell on the counter. T was really hoping that they would walk in while I was doing this. They didn't. Luckily, while doing the procedure he didn't mention my stinky feet OR the fact that they smelled like rubbing alcohol.
Probably in the midst of the stinky feet fiasco, my husband decided to tell me about his visit to the "man room" earlier. He was quite impressed with the room compared to some he's been to in the past. The funny part was when he questioned why there is always a "puppy pad" on the chair in those rooms? He can't figure out how logistically any man, can sit down, do their thing, and still aim into a cup. He simply thinks it can't happen.
The doctor did walk in while I was laughing, out loud. The doctor then told Trevor he could stay in the chair he was in (with a full view of my hysteroscopy) or move by me. He simply said "I'm good, I've seen all this". Nice.
We made it to the airport 3 hours before our flight. After abstaining the week prior, we both splurged on a couple glasses of wine (complete with reading material) before the late flight out. Well deserved I believe.
So the plan.
We will be doing a mock cycle with my next period which should arrive in a couple weeks. I'm currently cycle day 14. They'll use Vivelle patches, Estrace and then Endometrium to see my lining get in a nice cushy place. I will also be doing the Beta-3 Integrin biopsy test to ensure I have what it takes for an embryo to implant. If I don't, we'll do two months of Depot Lupron. We should know by early August where we stand. Once all things are a go, we can choose our donor. We are going to go with CCRM's database. They will already be screened and approved and it won't add those additional agency fees or travel costs. All of the eggs from the cycle will be mine for the fresh transfer and for future use.
My hope is our cycle will be in the early to late fall. I'm actually really happy about all of this. We have a good chance, finally.
We're leaving very early tomorrow morning to see my baby sister get married. Should be a great weekend of celebration (and yes, maybe a tad too much wine).
And if anyone is counting like I am...8 more days till I'm on a beach and can finally relax!
Much love everyone!!