Today I reflect on my marriage. Which regardless of our infertility, has been pure happiness for me. We waited a long time to finally get married and when we finally did, it was perfect. Every. Last. Detail.
It was on the smaller side, less than 75 our our close friends and family. Many of them traveled from all over the country to be a part of our day in a small town in North Carolina where I grew up. We had a backyard "pig pickin" on my dad's farm for our rehearsal dinner, that many would consider a disaster. Complete with sideways rain under our tent, a giant pig carcass on a grill, 50+ people crammed in my dad's house because of said "sideways rain" and a great little bluegrass band stuck behind the living room furniture, continuing to play on. There was nothing but smiles and good times regardless and I still get compliments today on our wedding weekend, especially that rehearsal dinner!
After 10 years of dating, I finally got it all and was so excited to start our lives together.
We've obviously gone through many struggles these past few years. A miscarriage. The devastating diagnosis of diminished ovarian reserve. And now the realization that our journey may be taking us one step further, to donor eggs. Some have asked if our marriage has been strained recently.
It has not.
We've gone through every step of this as a unit. Together. It's made us stronger. We laugh together. We cry together. We get angry together...but never at each other, only at fate that has dealt us this very unfair hand. We pray that we were given these challenges because we are strong enough to get through them and come out even better.
So Happy Anniversary, love. Thank you for being my best friend.
This picture pretty much sums up how happy I was that day...
The only thing that I am sad about today...is that he's in New York and we aren't together. But look at what arrived for me this morning!!!
Looking forward to our official celebration when he gets home on Friday!
As far as where we are going from here...we have a plan...kind of. We're just not quite convinced it's the right plan yet. We contacted CCRM and had them add the donor consultation to our ODWU on June 25. We've booked flights. We've booked a rental car and hotel.
For some reason we aren't convinced though. If we are doing donor eggs, is CCRM the right place? Could we have results just as good going somewhere closer and less expensive. Hopefully we get some clarity on this soon. Right now, we're just feeling overwhelmed and don't know where to go or what to do.
The next few weeks will be very busy for us. With T in NYC this week...I'm going to Santa Monica to work from our office there all next week. While I hate being away from him for so long, I'm looking forward to a change of scenery. He also believes working next to the ocean will do my soul some good. Let's hope.
The following week is CCRM (I think--I reserve the right to change my mind on this at anytime) and then flying to North Carolina for my sister's wedding all in the same week. Taking on a bit much?? Probably.
However, the week after that, we leave for Anguilla.
We'll be reliving the days of our honeymoon...and look how well that turned out!!
That's in 23 days, because, yes, I'm most definitely counting.