Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Just like that...our hopes are gone.

I don't have it in me for a long post. So this will be quick. I'll post more in the next few days after I'm able to wrap my head around all of this and put it to words.

One egg degenerated in culture and could not be used and the other failed to mature fully and could not be fertilized. So basically neither even made it to the point of attempting fertilization.

I didn't have high hopes, I mean my chances were shit, but this was worst case. So there is a lot to think about...

23 comments:

  1. Oh, that is crushing news. I am so sorry, Suzanne. Please take very good care of yourself through wrapping your mind around this terrible news. My thoughts are with you.

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  2. I wish I had something to say to make you feel better, but all I can come up with is "this sucks" and "I hate this for you!" Thinking of you!

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  3. Suzanne! This is not what I wanted to hear or read. There are no words to ease your pain right now, but know that you are loved by so many of us and we are all thinking about you and praying for you! Lots of hugs! We will not be shaken!

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    1. Ok. I hate this for you so I have to pray for you. Lord, we lift up Suzanne right now. We don't understand what you are doing in all this and know that we live in a broken world with evil and suffering, but right now we just ask that you would wrap Suzanne up in your arms Lord. That she would feel a sense of comfort and love from you that is unable to explain. We pray that you would heal her body, emotionally and physically and that you would lift her spirits over the next few days. Lord, we desperately ask that you would open her womb and improve and make her fertile Lord. We ask boldly! Amen

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    2. I can't tell you what this meant to me (and my husband) when we read this last night. Thank you so much.

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  4. Thinking about you and will keep you in my prayers.

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  5. I am so sorry Suz :( Feel free to post as much or as little as you need to. We will be here thinking of you and ready to support you when you are ready. I don't know why we have to go through such heartbreaking situations. I wanted this to work for you, and I am sorry it didn't.xoxo D

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  6. Oh no. I'm so very sorry to hear this.
    Thinking of you.

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  7. I have no words Suzanne. I am so incredibly sorry. You are in my thoughts and prayers. *hugs*

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  8. I am sorry Suzanne. This is not the news I was looking forward to. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

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  9. My dear Suzanne, My heart is breaking right along with yours. I know this cycle was crazy from the start, but it doesn't make the disappointment any less for you and your hubby. It's so much to wrap your brain around, and I will be praying for you to find a way to do that in the coming days.

    There is a certain horrible "sting" that is reserved for a failed IVF, and it's a let down you can only understand once you've gone through it yourself. I am so sorry you've had to experience it. As the heartache subsides slightly, I know you'll find a way to pick yourself up and dust yourself off and decide what to do next. Praying for you and your husband this week to find peace with any decisions that come next. Love you and praying so hard for you!

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  10. I'm SO SO sorry to hear this news. Failed IVF at any point is the pits. Sending you a hug and wishing there was more I could do for you...

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  11. Tears are streaming down my face... Suzanne, ughhh, my heart is so broken for you. If I had the ability, I would just wrap my arms around you and sit with you today. Words can't help, but know that I'm with you in this. On my knees asking the Lord to comfort you and to bring you answers. Big, big hugs my friend!!

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  12. I am so very, very sorry ((HUGS))

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  13. Oh Suzanne.... I am so sorry... I wasn't expecting this at all, as I'm sure neither were you. I know there is nothing I can say to make you feel better, but just know that I've been through two failed IVFs an somehow, you do start to recover. You will find a way to move forward. You are a tough woman.

    I am sending you a huge hug! xo

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  14. My heart breaks for you!!! I'm soo sorry things didn't work out!!! If you need to vent feel free to drop me an email. You are strong!!! I know the is nothing to say to make you feel better. Thinking of you!!

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  15. no. no. no. I am so sorry Suzanne. I am so shocked and saddened for you. I'm not going to blow and smoke up your *** because you know it all. Big hugs my friend. I am sending extra prayers for peace and guidance your way. This is not the end.

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  16. Hon, so sorry. Infertility is so so painful and emotional. I hate that it impacts us emotionally AND Physically. Hugs.

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  17. I know I've already expressed my condolences but I wanted to again extend a giant, virtual hug. BFN is nothing like the pain of a failed IVF and especially not going through what you've been through this month. The pain eases with time but in the meantime, know your virtual friends in the blogging world are all thinking of you. Huge hugs.

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  18. My heart is just absolutely broken for you :(. I am so so so beyond sorry for what you've had to endure the past few days. You are on my mind and in my heart... I pray that you will get through this - I know you will. Know that we are all here for you! xoxo

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  19. I'm so sorry, what heartbreak. I hope that you are doing OK; it takes a while to recover from such devestating news. I recently discovered your blog, and we're in a similar situation and it's horrible. I'm thinking of you and wishing you well.

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  20. Worst case is something you never really expect for yourself. And when it happens...it feels like you'll never survive it. I'm just so sorry.

    Be kind to yourself.

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