I'm struggling a bit today. I'm 5 dpo, so testing is still at a minimum almost a week away. I want to know right now and it's bothering me so much that it's out of my control. I feel that I have so much riding on this cycle. I guess I'll feel pretty discouraged if it's a BFN mainly because we nailed the 3 days prior to O, O day, and the 2 days following. That along with the Clomid, I guess I feel if it doesn't work, there is obviously an issue, especially since I know I'm responding well to the Clomid.
Another reason I have so much riding on this month, aside from my would be due date that is now 11 days away, the next few months, we aren't going to be able to put the effort in like we did this cycle. T travels in what could potentially (if my next cycle is "normal") be my fertile window. While it will be possible, he'll only be gone for 2 days, I know that it will lessen our chances. The following month, again, only if my cycles stay regular, he'll be gone for 3-6 days around my fertile window. Might as well take the month of August off of Clomid.
Needless to say, my patience (any that I had remaining) is pretty much gone. I recently came across a book (thank you, Danielle) that seemed almost too perfect for me. DH bought me a Kindle for my birthday (which is still a week away) and he wanted me to load a few books on it prior to vacation, then he'd wrap it up and give it to me on the 8th. I downloaded The Impatient Women's Guide to Getting Pregnant. I read a bit of it yesterday as I got my hair done, and I have to say, it may be my favorite of all the fertility books I've read. It's simply hilarious. Well written, witty and above all us, describes me to a T. I'm hoping Trevor doesn't take my Kindle away between now and my birthday, because I'm not sure I can stop reading it now. He has to know this is a very "impatient" time for me and I need all the help and support I can get, which = early birthday present. Everyone is happy.
Vacation in 5 days.