Monday, April 15, 2013

When is it my turn to get a break?

I settled down a bit over the weekend. While frustrated because of the delay, I said to myself, it's only a week or so, you can do this.

Then I got the call this morning. The doctor is concerned about my high e2 numbers after two weeks on the bcps. I have to go back in tomorrow to have more blood work. If my estradiol is still high, they want me to do a trigger shot to force ovulation, wait for AF then start from scratch. That means, back to the bcps for 2-3 weeks.

So I could potentially be looking at IVF in June?

I know that my RE is wanting this to be a good cycle. They've said that over and over again. I believe them. They are trying to look out for me and want the best for me. That does not mean that these delays aren't beyond frustrating. When so many doctors have told me that I'm running out of time, only to have time snatched away from me at every turn...it's starting to get, well hard.

I want a child.

And this is not fair.




12 comments:

  1. I'm sorry Suzanne. There is nothing fair about any of this. Big hugs.

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  2. I'm sorry! Big giant hugs!

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  3. Ugh, I'm so sorry! You're right, this is not fair... at all. I know exactly what you mean about trusting and understanding that your doctor wants this to work for you and that they're doing all they can. The delays just cause more sadness, worry and anxiety to an already beyond stressful time :( Sending hugs your way - and prayers that this cycle isn't over. xoxo

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  4. Ughhh! No!!!! How is this possible? Do you have mature follicles? How do you force ovulation of nothing? What is the point of birth control? Good grief! Sorry girl, I'm no help, I think I have more questions than you do! So, so, so unfair. Take heart that they want you to succeed almost as much as you do. HUGS!!!

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  5. Oh that sucks. :( I remember when we had cycles that were just "pointless" such as TI instead of IUI because I ovulated early. It's so frustrating. Hugs.

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  6. Sooo not fair. I hope beyond hope that all this waiting leads to a healthy baby for you.

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  7. Very big virtual hugs to you! I'm sorry that your IVF might get delayed even futher! That is so frustrating!!!!

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  8. Grrr! I'm sorry you are dealing with all this. I truly hope that when your IVF cycle does start it is your last. This journey can be overwhelming sometimes. Fx that a miracle happens and they tell you it was a false alarm.

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  9. Oh no, I am so sorry there are more roadblocks on your journey. I am glad that your doctors are doing what they can though to give you the highest success rate. Hopefully your levels will be low enough that you won't have to start the bc over again, but even if you do, you are definitely on the right track to becoming a mom :)

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  10. Damnit man. Sorry you are having to wait yet again. I'm glad they have such a close eye on the perfect timing for you though by looking at your blood levels. I know it sucks to wait even more than you already have, but I have a feeling if you can ovulate and start a fresh new cycle, it will be just the thing you need to reset your body officially back to normal after your early miscarriage. Hang in there dollface!

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  11. Just found out my e2 dropped, so for now I stay on the bcps and check again Friday. Hoping like crazy that all can still happen soon! Good luck tomorrow, girlie!!!

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  12. You're right. It's not even one bit fair. I hate that you have to wait and that this isn't starting off as smoothly (and as quickly) as you would have liked. Big sigh...and lots of hopes for a successful cycle...no matter how long it takes.

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